Convicted…. Twice

Well, today’s preaching really spoke to me. The morning service was from 1Thessalonians, and he preached about being sober minded. Well, I don’t have a problem with drinking, but I took the figurative meaning of sober to heart. I have been struggling with my eating for a long time; bad habits from childhood, and really not wanting to make the effort to change my ways. So that got me thinking… One of the things Pastor said was, we are being watched by others, saved and unsaved. How can I show anyone that God has power, if I don’t show self-control? Someone offered me candy after the service and I turned it down, one step forward (the two steps back are the killers!!). Well, this evening Pastor preached from the book of Hosea (chapter 5) as he has been doing for a few weeks now. Tonight’s sermon was titled, “Confession”. In my own words, Pastor said all the things that we are not confessing are keeping God away from us. We need to keep confessing to stay close to God, because he requires confession, regards it, and God will restore us. At first I sat there and thought, yes, I confess and a few things I had already confessed about went through my mind. Oh.. Surely I won’t have to worry about this! Well, as he kept preaching, Pastor said something about us being so prideful we even try to keep it from God by justifying why we are doing whatever it is. Ouch! Then I am sitting there telling the Holy Spirit to be quiet, so I can hear (just in case someday I need this). Holy Spirit is still talking and I am now thinking, maybe he is talking to me. Okay, the part about perseverance in sin… hmmm, yea, I am good at that. Anyway, I thought, I need to change things; well really I need to confess and ask God to change me. But here is the thing… I am terrible when no one makes me accountable. So, as you read this you can see that my goal is to change my eating, in doing so, I should lose some weight also, which I really need to do, but now I have made myself accountable and feel like a turkey in November with my neck stretched out ready for the kill. But there is hope….

Luke 1:37 For with God nothing shall be impossible.

Proverbs 28:13 He that covereth his sins shall not prosper: but whoso confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy.

1John1: 9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

I am very grateful to our Lord for His forgiveness, love, and strength.